spirit, mind, matter

"It is good to have an end to journey toward; but it is the journey that matters, in the end." – Ursula K. Le Guin


The Devil on your Back

I love the Florence and the Machine song, Shake it Out. I particularly love the line that says, “It’s hard to dance with the devil on your back, so shake him off.” The more I’ve listened to this song, the more  I found myself wondering what my proverbial devil on my back  was. What is the thing that is keeping me from dancing, from freedom.  I’ve been sitting with that question for a while. Each meditation would revolve around this same sort of sequence.

  • Sit with the breath for a few minutes
  • Allow the thoughts to come and go
  • When a “sticky” thought comes, stay with it, and trace back to where that thought came from. Is there some sort of belief or story under that thought?
  • Honor the feeling, but question “Is this true?”
  • Intend to pay attention in my daily life to where that belief gets me caught in a reactive pattern.

Here is one of my patterns, so you can see how it plays out in a practical way.

  • Sit with the breath
  • Notice thoughts about needing to get things done
  • Allow them to pass
  • Notice that the longer I sit, the more tension I can feel coming up in regards to what I need to get done, planning my day, thinking about the future
  • Trace my thoughts back to see what beliefs I have. This one took a while, a few weeks, but I noticed that there is a deep belief about needing to be productive and check a certain number of things of my list. I notice that the need to check things off my list is preventing me from being in the present moment, not only now, during the meditation, but also in life.  I’ll be eating dinner, and instead of focusing on the flavor of the food, I’m thinking about how after dinner, I’ll wash the dishes, clean the kitchen, and then get a load of laundry in. Before I know it, dinner is gone and I’m not satisfied and I’m rushing to the next thing.
  • Breathe with the feeling. Allow it to be there, but still commit to noticing the breath and allowing the “”check things off the list” mind to be there, as I’m sitting and as I’m experiencing my breath.  Just because I have that thinking, doesn’t mean I have to act on it. 
  • See that patterning, and set an intention to slow down and notice when I’m living in “check it off the list” mind.

It's hard to dance with the devil on your back, so shake him off! :) You've got the victory ...


We all have different devils that pop up in our lives, and by taking  a few moments to sit in meditation and investigate, we then allow ourselves the opportunity to practice not reacting to the devil and we create a little more space in our lives to see where that devil pops up outside of our meditation practice.